Not Too Daunting


When you are incredibly overweight and you are trying to get healthy, it can seem like an overwhelming task. At times it seems nearly impossible. I have been on my weight loss journey for a while now and I have lost a lot of weight. I am very very proud of how far I have come. Still, there are days when all I can think of is how far I still have left to go. Yes I have lost 159 pounds since January and 199 pounds from my all time high weight, but I still have over 200 pounds to lose before I can reach a healthy weight. Sometimes it feels like I will be on this journey forever and in a very real sense, I will be. My journey does not stop when I hit some arbitrary number on the scale or when I fit into a certain size. I am a food addict who has beaten her body into an incredibly unhealthy state and unless I want it to remain so unhealthy, I  must eat right and exercise every day, for the rest of my life. I’m not saying that I will never overeat again or that I will exercise every single day, but I have to constantly be on alert to not fall back into my old habits. It is way to easy to be unhealthy and I know that that is not the life that I want. It is not easy to take the healthy life path, but it is so very worth it. One year ago I could barely walk and I was in a lot of pain every day. Today I did my Cardio boxing workout, then I went to my daughter’s basketball party and played a little basketball with Shawn and the girls, and then I came home and did some Just Dance 4 with my daughter. That is SO amazing! I never thought that I would be capable of doing all that in a week, let alone in a day. This is why I will not let anything stop me. This is why, even when I get overwhelmed and afraid, tired and discouraged, I push on. This is the life that I want and this is why I fight the battle every day and I always will.