High (This one is PG 13)

I do believe that I have had my first official exercise high. Exercise always makes me feel good. Physically, mentally, emotionally, I feel better after I exercise. I always get a little happy when I exercise, especially after I’m done! 🙂 But today I felt a total high. I felt SO good! It was unbelievable.

Back in the day when I was young and dumb, I did my fair share of experimenting with drugs. Some I had to try many times before I decided I didn’t like them. I liked smoking and getting mellow and happy. I was a happy smoker for a long time and I don’t regret it. I say this knowing that there is a chance that Marissa will read this. I have had this talk with her. She knows I did things in my life that I hope she never does in hers. I have talked to her about what I regret and what I don’t regret but I still hope she doesn’t do. I hope she never smokes or does drugs. If I had known then what I know now my life would be dramatically different today. BUT I digress. Big surprise there, huh? Lol.

So today, Shawn and I were doing EA Active. When I started doing EA Active workouts about a month or so ago, I did fifteen minute easy routines and I had to sit down after about every other exercise. Today Shawn and I did a thirty minute medium routine and I did not sit down once. I ran four times during that thirty minutes and at the end during the final moments when I wanted to stop I pushed myself through it and ran to the end. It was AWESOME! I felt a burst of energy and a lift of emotion so overwhelming that tears were running down my cheeks. I was crying tears of joy, of pride, and I was so high. It was better than any chemical high I have ever felt. I did it. I DID it! Amazing! I still keep smiling an hour later. I am so amazed. I never thought I would enjoy running. At my lightest weight I could barely run a minute. Now I’m starting to see why people run. Don’t get me wrong, I am not going to be signing up for any marathons any time soon, but maybe someday. It’s not off the table, and that’s a new feeling for me. I feel so capable.  This may be the most addictive thing I’ve ever done.